(Preview: Rhea, is a 31 yrs old independent, working as a VP in a
renowned IT co. She’s been brought up by a single mother, very smart looking
for a 57 yrs old, who is a gazetted officer in the French embassy. Rhea’s life
is quite complicated and rough as per times, but she is a real fighter.)
Act 2: Scene 1, Mother Daughter conversation
Its Rhea’s room with basic furniture, but clean n stylish furnishings. While
Rhea was working on her Mac sitting on the couch sipping her evening black
coffee, her mother was on the side of the bed re-doing Rhea’s wardrobe.
Rhea: (looking worriedly) What
Maa, U wanna say something?
Maa: Naa ..Nothing!
Rhea: Then why r u staring at me like that? It’s weird!!
Maa: (sternly) Right!
Everything I can see from here, to me seems weird too. (Sighs)
(Rhea taking a deep breath, looked up with a doubt in face at her mom)
Rhea: What? No tell me what? Oh …..Ok! …I know this……. It’s about my
reaction, right?
Maa: Yes.
Rhea: Mom, what should I do? Yell at everyone and cry-cry-cry till I die?
If that’s not enough then should I break all these things in this room, will
that give u a satisfied reaction? Will that work? Tell me, I’ll do it.
(Rhea takes a pause and looks at her mom, continues…)
Listen. Come here. Sit. (holding her mom’s hand)
I know u care about me. But the
truth is Maa, I really don’t feel like crying. Can’t really cry. It’s not
coming, what should I do? Fake it? For the sake of people to get it real?
U know na Maa, ‘Faking’ is the
only thing I can NEVER do, it doesn’t come to me at all. If I could…., I wouldn’t
have ended up like this today, at this phase of my life.
But I don’t understand this, at
all!! Why do I need to justify always? Why isn’t ‘He’ answerable? Why aren’t everyone pointing at him? Why can’t
people understand that, if ur husband cheats on u at the 5th year of ur
marriage and God knows since when, and that man still has no signs of guilt or embarrassment
when caught ‘Red’ by everyone in the family, still then at the divorce court,
he is found proudly negotiating with the lawyers and pushing the case against
his wife, do you think that’s worth enough for me crying? Why is it that the
wife who has to repent on it? Why this indifferent-world suddenly needs the
wife to look sorry, sad and depressed? What was my fault? ………That I couldn’t
restrained this broken marriage? Or is it…. why didn’t I charge him, sue him
dead, or steal a damn deal of alimony he would pay up till his death? Is that
all what is expected of me? What is pinching u Mom? Or, it is about ur family
here? I’m really surprised why ur so called family suddenly so interested in
our lives now??
Maa: They are ur family too Rhea. They are ur maternal end, don’t
forget that. U should not talk about them this way, they are also deeply hurt
and concerned for u. They have always been there thick-n-thin with me and u. Today
if we both are surviving good that’s just because of them. They are the only
ones I can call ‘my family’ despite few of them not being so pleasant with us.
Rhea: Oh really!! When did this happen? Sorry, whatever it might be with
u, I don’t wanna get into that debate again, my stand for these ‘so called guest
artists’ in my life will never change. They were nothing to me then, today and
never! And bullshit they are concerned! U know what! Suddenly they may have
realized that this divorce will pull down their invisible high edged status
they have in this fake prone society they love to live in. No surprise! if they
are still bitching about me in my back too! Now they have a great topic too! They
always do.
Maa: No beta, it’s not like that. Ur Dida is really upset. She wasn’t
prepared for this disaster na!
Rhea: Listen Maa, I’ll talk to Dida and manage her, u don’t worry. She
will understand my state of mind much better than u do. But wait……….. what disaster?? U really think
this was a blunder that I’ve done to my life?
What, U really wanted me to continue in that dead home with that 5 years old death-buried relationship? Uff, that’s disgusting!! Why do I have to make u realize what all I went through, all over again n again, soo many times now, to build ur trust in me? Maa, u need to start believing in me, have faith in me that what has happened, is good for all. Its high time now!
(Rhea feels helpless and tired, but still continues……)
No wait! Does it seem like I
wasn’t interested to hold on to it? Really? Was that in my hand? U think so? What
should I have done Maa? No tell me!! Accept him the way he is now? Or u want me
to break his new love affair and force him to live in with me, sleep with me?
Will that work good for any of us? No na! Then why, what’s wrong with you? Why aren’t
u happy for me?
(Mother putting her hand over Rhea’s head)
Maa: I’m happy for you, beta. Just that I’m a bit afraid now thinking
of ur future. U are becoming so unpredictable now a days. What will u do now
with ur life, everyone is asking that?
(Rhea stands up from the couch keeping the Mac aside)
Rhea: Whatever! Anyways, I can’t explain any further. It has always been
Me who took care of myself then and will do in future too! He was always just a
husband for namesake. Did he ever been that partner to this life which we
promised each other? Not for a single time in last 4 years!! I’ve never felt
this for long time that he is back with that happy-smart-caring-love of my life
guy I met or dated 5 yrs ago. Day on day, he was just getting more indifferent
and out of sight most of the time.
U know Maa, this is that one feeling no one can FAKE between a husband n a wife, that feeling of LOVE n the Touch. Somewhere deep in ur heart, ur conscience keeps reminding u, that u are drying out of that love-potion from within. It may be that u have lost it or ur partner has lost u. But still, we humans keep dragging it thinking one day everything will change, but knowing it very well that ‘love once gone is actually gone, never turns back’. But silly us, we never accept. We start cheating ourselves with such consolations. And we end up no-where!
I did realize this long back! And u know me very well, Maa. I am always clear on what I wanted. I don’t like dragging along. Yes, I tried a lot to bring him back, did all what I could, even if it didn’t turn out as expected. In fact, it turned the other way round, as he threw his justifications covered under his anger every time on me! But I knew well, he didn’t love me anymore. So, there was no point pushing me on him. U know what Maa, I realize this the same time, that love has died within me too, in these last 4 years! When you are the only one left and held responsible for holding this relationship up high on one shoulder and the other guy doesn’t even care for u, can’t even see the pain in ur eyes any more, but blame u for everything that has gone wrong, u know It’s Over! So, when it came in the limelight and got confirmed that he was in a relationship elsewhere and he is desperately wanting to move out, what u can do then? But just pick ur heart out, squeeze it till it stops beating and kill it in ur own hands. That’s the feeling, isn’t it? It aches like that when someone u love madly crushes ur heart and leaves u half dead. That’s what I felt then. And now I’ve overcome that pain.
(Her mom started crying, Rhea hugs her and continues…)
Maa listen, I know u r worried
but sorry, I can’t keep doing this every time. Sorry.
Actually, this is what breaks me
down more, Maa. It really hurts when I realise that my only support, my mother
fails to understand my decision and is always in dilemma standing up for me
when I need her!
(Rhea also has pain in her eyes, sad and sobbed, continues…)
I’ve already lost my First love
of my life. Yes, I’m badly heartbroken! You know na what it feels when u feel
cheated and thrown away like a used tissue paper, by the man whom u gave all
the power to destroy you, trusting he won’t but actually he did? Just like
that. No justifications given, no one answerable. What is left now?.... is ur
living body with a dead soul.
Gradually u learn to deal with it.
U learn how to stop crying, coz eventually ur tears will dry out with time.
Nothing bothers u anymore, u are just a living dead! Maa, that phase of my life
has passed away. I can’t afford looking back anymore. Yes, I agree that last 5
years have gone a total waste of my life! I still don’t know what was it that I
was chasing soo madly? What did I achieve? Nothing. Whatever I did has turned
out to be a big failure, whether at work or in love. But now nothing worse can
happen than this, right?
(Rhea Sighs sarcastically and
continues…)
I’m a total failure, I know. But one
thing I also know is that I have to live, and still be alive. Unfortunately,
death will not come to me easily. Maa, it seems like ur Gods are not satisfied
yet! They need more drama, more broken pieces of me and my strength. I know they
will not leave me at peace so easily. U never know…. what bigger plans they
have for me ahead!
(Rhea smiles)
(Rhea smiles)
So, it’s true that I can’t end
this bloody life myself, suicide is not my thing, and it was never. It needs a
lot of courage. I don’t have that, rather I have a little bit of stamina left, to
think to start this life again, that comes easy to me. But see I’m not sulking.
I’m trying to be happy! But alas! That too is pinching everyone now. No one
likes me be normal. It seems no one wants me to survive even!
(Rhea walks up to the large window, looking outside at the night and her
mom gets a phone call and leaves the room. Though this view from Rhea’s room is
always awesome as it was on the 22nd floor in a posh building with Mumbai’s top
city life view, and the weather being always pleasant as it was cool n windy, even
though her life wasn’t!)
END OF SCENE 1, ACT 2.